Happy Father’s Day to all the dads out there! 

My dad passed away five years ago.  While our relationship was complicated at times, I always knew that he loved me, and I have lots of wonderful memories of him.  His life was shaped to a great extent by his experiences during World War II in Germany, and as a result of experiencing so much loss at such a young age, he held those he loved close to him – at times, too close for a daughter who wanted to spread her wings and fly from the nest!   

He instilled in me my love of nature – some of my earliest and fondest memories are of long walks in the woods and parks near our home.  He taught me the names of all the flowers, trees, butterflies and animals we’d encounter on those walks.  He loved the Alps – his happiest times were spent hiking those beautiful mountains.  The photo above is of a town in Austria where we spent many childhood vacations. 

He worked hard at a job he didn’t enjoy all that much to provide for my mother and me.  We were by no means rich, but he always made me feel like we were.  He loved to travel, and after taking early retirement, for the next nine years, he and my mother traveled extensively.  He especially enjoyed his travels in the Western part of the United States – every Western movie he’d ever seen came to life for him there.  He would talk about those trips for years to come. 

He had a difficult time dealing with my mother’s death, and his life contracted again.  He didn’t enjoy traveling by himself, and other than his annual visit to the United States, he stayed close to home.  When he became ill with prostate cancer, I wasn’t sure he would want to fight – but he surprised me.  He wanted to live, and he survived.  Then he decided that it was time to make a lifelong dream come true.  He sold his home of forty years almost overnight, and bought a condo in the Black Forest, where he spent the last two years of his life in an environment that he loved.   Having been a life-long worrier, he learned to live in the moment and “appreciate each flower and each butterfly,” as he once told me.  He passed away after a short illness, and knowing how happy he was the last two years of his life was a great comfort to me.

If you still have your father, tell him that you love him today.  My dad had a long, sometimes difficult, but ultimately good life, and I miss his physical presence in my life.  His spirit is never far from me.

4 Comments on Father’s Day Reflections

  1. Such a beautiful tribute to your father, Ingrid. He sounds like a good man. My own father is still alive and well. He spent yesterday at the racetrack. My mom had gotten him (and her) tickets for his birthday in January to see the races in person on Father’s Day. A nice treat for him. He lives too far for me to visit for a short weekend and so I made do with a phone call and also had sent him a gift by mail.

  2. I’m sorry about your Dad, Dawn – it must have been very difficult to watch him suffer. It sounds like he left quite a legacy in you – I think it’s a real gift when we can appreciate those aspects in ourselves that were given to us by a parent.

  3. A love of nature is a wonderful gift from your dad, Ingrid.

    I, too, lost my Dad a little over 4 years ago, and I miss him so very much. He was so positive, affectionate, and taught me a love for life. His last few years were very difficult as he had pulmonary fibrosis, and really suffered. It was so hard to watch.

    I’m glad you knew your dad loved you — no matter how difficult the relationship, the hole they leave when their physical presence leaves is big.

    Thanks for honoring fathers in your post today, Ingrid.

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